How do you live out the days?

I have lots of homework to do, and what have I done so far? I watched 'A Star is Born' again and cried my eyes out, and now I'm LJing. I have an extra credti essay to do for Margolis, and two parts of the JLC project. Gah.

Instead, I transcribe monologues from movies. I need a life.

 

"How is Norman? [pause] Is he alright?"

"Yes, he's fine. Want some coffee?"

"Thanks."

"Sit down, Oliver."

"Tell me, is he..."

"He's in a sanitarium. He really wants to stop drinking, Oliver. He's trying very hard. I know he is. But what... what is it? What is it that makes him want to destroy himself? You've known him longer than anyone else. Tell me what it is. Please... I don't care, just tell me."

"Don't you think I've tried through the years to know why? To help him? I don't know, Esther. I don't know what the answer is."

"Well, I... I've got to find the answer. You don't know what it's like to watch somebody you love just crumble away bit by bit and day by day in front of your eyes... and stand there, helpless. Love isn't enough. I thought it was. I thought I was the answer for Norman, but love isn't enough for him. And I'm afraid of what's happening to me... because... sometimes I hate him. I hate his promises to stop and then the watching and waiting to see it begin again. I hate to go home to him at night and listen to his lies. But my heart goes out to him because he tries... he does try... but I hate him for failing! I hate me, too... I hate me 'cause I've failed too... I have. I don't know what's going to happen to us, Oliver. No matter how much you love somebody... how do you live out the days? How?"

( Survey )