sunshine_queen | "Trop peu de bonnes fées et trop de Cendrillon" (Reply)

It's okay, guys. I don't need anyone to comment on my LJ.

I'm just... really down lately. I guess some would say that I feel guilty about lying to my mom about my progress report/ my chem grade/ my math grade/etc., but it's really not that. It's that suddenly I'm all icky and doubtful of myself and of my friends and of my purpose and since I'm soooo not like that it's weird and I'm not used to it, which makes it doubly unpleasant.

Today Heather was, simply, a bitch. I mean, I leave early yesterday. Everyone knows I'm not feeling too hot. Everyone asks me about it, and, to be honest, I expect it. I call on people's birthdays and I ask if they're sick and I expect the same courtesy. And I receive it, generally. But Heather- you know, whose birthday we all spent money on, the one I baked an entire pan of brownies for- barely spoke to me. Because apparently something's back on with her and Vaca.

And it's not that I care about her liking Philly better. I'm so over that. But the not caring? That really, really hurt.

So yeah, me? Not so hot in the friend department lately.

Aside from that, I got placed at a table where the collective average is a C, and this is supposed to help my average.

And in Khausinau it was fun because Khausinau is a fun class. We read aloud Macbeth and I so can't wait 'til it's my turn to be Lady M. Because she rocks entirely on. And since I read somewhere that if Lena Olin could play any character, she'd choose Lady M, I soooo see SpyMommy when I read it. Which is actually all kinds of cool.

Walked home from the metro today, which was a not so long walk in 97º weather. Which is hot. And now I'm dizzy. And feeling mighty unloved.