Oncoming Trains
Jun. 8th, 2004 07:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sunshine_queenThe most horrible feeling in the world is when you're mad at the world and you know, logically, that you have no reason behind it. My reasoning is, if I'm going to be mad, let me be blinded to my irrationality. Let me just scream and bitch and be horrible and NOT REALIZE IT. Or have me not be upset at all. Is it so hard to ask?
Well, that, and feeling excluded.
I had a FREAKING GOOD DAY overall. English was boring and we did nothing and the Chem final wasn't too horrific. I went to lunch with Philly, Heather, Janelle and the frenchies (Hugo, Romain, Etienne and then Fred). I met Fred for the first time, and not only is he REALLY HOT. Yeah.
I am so going to burst into tears. I feel excluded and unloved and my teeth hurt and I know I should be studying and I'm anxious about grades and finals and I don't want to not see my friends every day. I HATE being out of the loop, and here I am in a chat with three of my closest internet friends I feel like I'm that girl that everyone invites out of pity.
I got 'A Star is Born' on DVD yesterday. I got my braces tightened today. Dr. Carroll says there's a light at the end of my tunnel. I think she's telling me that so I don't commit suicide over them, because now that Janelle has gotten them off it's only me.
I talked to Becca today. I miss her SO MUCH. And I'm going to miss Heather and Philly and Addy and Janelle and everyone and oh god. The odds of us having the same scheduals like we did this year is slim to none. It's over. Everything.
I need brownies.
Well, that, and feeling excluded.
I had a FREAKING GOOD DAY overall. English was boring and we did nothing and the Chem final wasn't too horrific. I went to lunch with Philly, Heather, Janelle and the frenchies (Hugo, Romain, Etienne and then Fred). I met Fred for the first time, and not only is he REALLY HOT. Yeah.
I am so going to burst into tears. I feel excluded and unloved and my teeth hurt and I know I should be studying and I'm anxious about grades and finals and I don't want to not see my friends every day. I HATE being out of the loop, and here I am in a chat with three of my closest internet friends I feel like I'm that girl that everyone invites out of pity.
I got 'A Star is Born' on DVD yesterday. I got my braces tightened today. Dr. Carroll says there's a light at the end of my tunnel. I think she's telling me that so I don't commit suicide over them, because now that Janelle has gotten them off it's only me.
I talked to Becca today. I miss her SO MUCH. And I'm going to miss Heather and Philly and Addy and Janelle and everyone and oh god. The odds of us having the same scheduals like we did this year is slim to none. It's over. Everything.
I need brownies.
