sunshine_queen | "Because she was nice. And now, we all hurt."

Nita said, "If you're not upset at [Mama Summers'] death, you don't have a soul." Well, I have a soul. And a big one. Because I am now destroyed.

I watched, like, six episodes of Buffy today and this was the last one and oh man. I am just... destroyed. Because everyone reacted perfectly, with Xander's anger and desire to blame, and Willow's compulsive changing and Dawn's meltdown and Giles trying to fix it and then doing his best to make it better for Buffy and... and Anya. I might be biased, because Anya is my favorite, but oh man. Her reaction was pretty much the best dialogue/acting I've seen in a long time.

Anya: Are they gonna cut the body open?
Willow: Oh my God! Would you just… s-stop talking? Just… shut your mouth! Please!
Anya: What am I doing?
Willow: How can you act like that?
Anya: Am I supposed to be changing my clothes a lot? I-is that the helpful thing to do?
Xander: Guys—
Willow: The way you behave—
Anya: Nobody will tell me.
Willow: Because it's not okay for you to be asking these things!
Anya: But I don't understand! I don't understand how this all happens. How we go through this. I knew her, and then she's— there's just a body, and I don't understand why she just can't get back in it and not be dead... anymore! It's stupid! It's mortal and stupid! And... and Xander's crying and not talking, and... and I was having fruit punch, and I thought, well, Joyce will never have any more fruit punch, ever, and she'll never have eggs, or yawn, or brush her hair, not ever, and no one will explain to me why!

I had all other kinds of thoughts, about stupid Glory being Ben, and Spike being in love with Buffy, and the idea of a Buffybot and Dawn finding out she's the key but I am all kinds of depressed now and I need to watch 30 Rock or something to recover. Because now I hurt. Damn you, Mama Summers, dying of an aneurysm.

(Damn me for crying THE WHOLE DAMN TIME. Now I feel all depressed and I want to eat cookies and I don't need any,)