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[sunshine_queen]

So today:

- I sent in my whole 'I live in France now, French government, please pretend I'm a citizen for the next few months!" packet. 5,30 euros. :(
- Bought train tickets to go visit Melissa in England, which was so expensive I can't actually think about it too hard or my brain will explode but I WILL SEE MELISSA IN EIGHT DAYS :D :D :D
- Watched the pilot and first episode of Dr Quinn Medicine Woman and omg, it is SO MUCH BETTER than anticipated! No, seriously. I tweeted that I should probably be irked that every five seconds Sully gets to rescue Michaela (often by using his tomahawk, and no, that's not a metaphor but mmmmm) but no, seriously. I'm, what, three hours in and I have bought them lock stock and barrel and I just want them to be together all day every day. Who knew I found the mountain man get up an attractive thing? Not I!

I'm obviously feeling a lot better- having a phone with internet so that I can email my mom in lieu of texts and tweet with you all is doing *wonders* to make me feel more normal, and people I barely know on campus have stopped me to be all "are you the english assistant? THE INTERNET IS COMING WE'RE WORKING ON IT," so IDK if people were really touched by how dedicated I was requesting it or if news spread that I cried several times talking to people about how homesick I was, but I'll take it.

Even now, though, when I'm pretty much happy with my location and what's going on, I still will get blindsided by a sucker punch of homesickness for no good reason. Earlier today I was either brushing my teeth or putting on makeup, something by the mirror in my bedroom, and I almost burst into tears because I was suddenly so homesick. It's awful. I never endured this at college! What gives!

(I know I'm feeling better overall, though, because suddenly my body is no longer accepting 8+ hours of sleep a night anymore, and I'm starving ALL OF THE TIME, like my body remembers it's barely eaten for the past few weeks and wants to make up for it all at once.)

Comments

[kerlin.livejournal.com]

YES, Dr. Mike/Sully. Augh, if you keep talking about this I'm going to need to re-watch the series too, and I do not have time for that. (Plus M. would never ever watch with me, which gives me about 2 hours a week to watch things when he's not home...)

I'm glad things are better overall. :) I think part of the homesickness is not just missing people, but missing familiarity. France is different in nearly every way from the United States. When you were at college, you didn't have to adjust to a new language, new currency, new food, new cultural expectations. You just had to adjust to missing your family. The double shift is really, really difficult. I was glad I went abroad for a full year because I felt I really figured it out and got into a groove after about three months, when students who did a half-year were getting ready to leave.

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

Giiiirl I am warning you right now that if things continue the way they've been going, I am going to be talking about them a lot. Them!!!!!

I think you must be right... there's no other reason to explain why being in a grocery store makes me want to burst into tears every single time. The language really isn't bothering me, but I spend a fair amount of time with people speaking English, which helps, but lord do I find stores challenging.

[kerlin.livejournal.com]

You would not believe the meltdown I had after I found my favorite cereal (Special K) in the American Foods section of a local grocery store in a fit of homesickness, paid 10 euros for it, got home and immediately poured a bowl...to find that it tasted nothing like Special K does in the US. It was ugly.

Wait until Christmas! French grocery stores do Christmas really, really well. You have to get a Kinder advent calendar for me. I haven't found a really good advent calendar in the US since I got spoiled by my Kinder one in France.

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

I have been burned by american things in France before, so I'm actually really pleased by the fact that I found ketchup that actually tastes legit!

[whatever-lj.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling a little better!

I laughed when you said you sometimes get emotional brushing your teeth -- I guess that's what happened to Adama, Season 4.5.

Sleep! Eat!

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

OMG, LOL, I never realized that getting emotional then was EXACTLY WHAT BILL DID. D:

[lady-padme.livejournal.com]

Don't leave France without having foie gras.

* mouth waters *

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

I think that kind of fine food would be lost on me, LP, it's definitely not to my taste!

[lizardbeth-j.livejournal.com]

you have to wait a little while if you're going in order, but you should know that Trucco appeared on Dr Quinn. :D

glad it's going better for you!

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

OMG HE DID?! WHEN LIZ WHEN?!

[lizardbeth-j.livejournal.com]

ep 6.14 - "seeds of doubt' In case you were wondering if he was a good guy, he plays one of Colleen's suitors named MR COLLINS.

and also, he is young and dorky looking. :)

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

I so doubt he ever looked dorky! But I will get though. I will get there.

[phoenixrising06.livejournal.com]

You're making me want to rewatch DQMW, lady. I spent many years of my childhood being in love with Sully, let me tell you.

I'm glad things are getting better for you!

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

HE IS SO HANDSOME AND LOVEABLE AND HAVE I MENTIONED THAT JOE LANDO IS MY INAUGURAL TV BOYFRIEND? *fans self*

[vash26.livejournal.com]

Okay, you're still homesick, but you're getting there. It sounds like you're doing much better than a while ago. Internet is helping, seriously, I wouldn't know what to do without internet. It's a basic necessity.

Yay! for London!

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

In my defense, the real reason I was so desperate for internet was to communicate with my friends and family! As much as I love fandom, I've been okay putting it on hold. It was mainly not being able to contact home that was killing my soul.

I'm still really homesick, but I am doing so much better than I was! I've been so lucky to have caring and supportive people around me.

[daybreak777.livejournal.com]

You found Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman!!! Your squee brings me back and I almost want to post about it. :-) That show loses nothing in the years past.

*hugs* I can't believe you are in France! You are very brave and I'm glad to hear you're adjusting.

Almost want to cheer you with some Gaius and Caprica in Colorado fic. Heee! They'd be hilarious. Jake would try to recruit Caprica to the saloon and Myra would have to warn them. Ah, memories. :-)

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

It is amazing all the time! I love it!

*hugs* I can't believe I'm here either! It's very weird, and I'm not so sure it's brave so much as foolish? At least at this point I'm still like WHYYYY SELF WHYYYY so hopefully that will end.

OMG, Gaius and Caprica in Colorado Springs! That would be amazing.