sunshine_queen

It seems like everytime I think me and my friends are growing apart, I get smacked in the face with the fact that we're not.

When I say "my friends" I mean the Blue Stars- Tata and Becca don't count as they're The Best Friend; Carol and Chang and Galvez and the rest of the drama class and Tay Tay are all "new" friends; Nica and Tessie and Hannah and Nita etc. (I love you all, just not listing) it's a completely different situation altogether.

However, the Blue Stars- me, Janelle, Philly, Heather and Addy- we used to do everything together last year. We had identical schedules. We knew everything about everyone.

ANd now junior year came, and I have one class with Heather, one with Addy, none with Philly, and three with Janelle. I hardly ever talk to any of them. I have a whole slew of new friends. Still eat lunch with the Blue Stars (and the boyfriends, and Tommy)... but it's not the same.

Sometime this week I had accepted that we were never going to be the same way again: that The Blue Stars were now only five points that were disconnected and no longer unified by lines or color. And when I thought this- watching Addy with new friends, Heather skipping, Philly eating lunch with her boyfriend in the caf- I didn't even feel sad, just resigned.

Today was chem tutoring. Philly gave me a ride, and I sat next to her. Heather came and sat behind me, Addy two seats behind Philly because of Fei.

And in one session... suddenly it was like 10th grade again. We chatted and laughed and worked together.

And it was nice.

I flirted something awful with Marcos- it's so much fun to, and he's so nice. He walked me to where Mom was in the car- and then freaked out and was all, "MAMA Z!" and chatted, asking about LA. Then Barkow came over, and Mom talked with her. And then CHANG came over and was all, Mama Z! You coming to LA? (Madi, study.) Then Javi came over, all, MAMA Z! And talked about Chem. And then Tay Tay, Galvez and Caitlin came over and Galvez was all "MAMA Z!"

My mother is more popular than I am.

I studied a whole lot last night- I plan on finishing all the topics today and moving on the options. I might go to Addy's tomorrow to study instead of visiting my dad.

And now I am going to go study for long periods of time.

... sacre bleu.