sunshine_queen | Jennifer Garner hates me.

After swimming today I took a nap.

This nap had strange and mostly bad dreams.

There was one where like, I wasn't who I am, but I was, and I was a little girl. It was really weird, and I can't remember what we did but it involved a canal and other children and near death experiences. Then we had to hide in that SCARY PLACE from "The Bone Collector" and it was late and this area was unsavory and there was a UPS truck driving around in the dark (and scary) and then suddenly I ran into something and knocked out. I woke up and I'm in the hospital, my age now, and apparently I'm pretty much a vegetable and can't really move or do much and I can hardly remember anything ever and every day I go down to the hospital shop and by NEW MAGNETS. My life was comprised of MILLIONS OF MAGNETS. I think I got a 'My Little Pony' magnet.

Then, in the other dream... which kinda just ran off the first, in some strange way, I was at Forever 21 (which I loathe, hate, despise and abominate) with Mom and Mel and we're just sitting around because it's crowded like the H&M's in New York were... and Jen Garner comes in.

When she came in, she had one sunglasses and a belly and an accomplice (friend, entourage?) but as she went around, she suddenly had only had the friend but had gained crutches.

I just minimally poke my mother and mouth "Jen Garner" to her and my mom nods and goes, (again, very, very softly,) "Yeah, totally her."

Jen is also on the cell phone and going around on her crutched and talking on her cell phone loudly, and the entire store falls silent to watch her. I remember watching her- and she was wearing this ridiculous outfit, because it was a little skirt and top and she was wearing fuck-me heels, I swear, with crutches- and suddenly she goes to leave and stops and turns and says to my mother, "Hi, I'm Jennifer Garner" and my mom introduces herself, and Jen hands her three little red cards and goes out the door. My mom sits down, commenting on how nice she is, and I read the cards with a sinking heart, because they say "No. 1 FAN" accusingly on the top and it says, "More than a little, why not a lot?" on the button... and bellow is a rebuke for ruining Jen's day. I felt so guilty- (A) for "ruining" her day when it totally wasn't our fault and (B) for her picking on my mother and not on me. I had just gotten up and said, "Miss Garner?" and gotten her attention when my sister woke me up from my nap. And now I have this niggling feeling that Jennifer Garner hates me.

Which is ridiculous.

We almost walked out on Yolanda today, but my mom says we're finishing our two weeks out as of right now. I wore my glasses today, so she couldn't make me do laps. I think I'm going to continue wearing them, just to irk her. I really can't wait until I get my period so I can sit out and she really won't be able to say anything. It sure is nice to hear all the time how much she appreciates me as an aide and treats me like a common criminal.