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Oct. 11th, 2011 06:23 pmOf course when I only have fifty minutes in a room with internet my computer needs to restart. So, to update:
- People continuously give me hope and then take it away about getting internet here.
- People keep offering me half-baked solutions, most of which I am uninclined to take.
- I am not entirely sure if I am sabotaging myself because I'm scared, if I actually don't want to be here, or both.
- Met with a super nice teacher who offered to let me come and use her phone to call home, take me to dinner, and gave me a thing of chocolates from a local chocolate shop. Everyone's being really nice but I still don't want to be here. I feel terrible like I'm wasting an opportunity constantly.
- People continuously give me hope and then take it away about getting internet here.
- People keep offering me half-baked solutions, most of which I am uninclined to take.
- I am not entirely sure if I am sabotaging myself because I'm scared, if I actually don't want to be here, or both.
- Met with a super nice teacher who offered to let me come and use her phone to call home, take me to dinner, and gave me a thing of chocolates from a local chocolate shop. Everyone's being really nice but I still don't want to be here. I feel terrible like I'm wasting an opportunity constantly.
