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[sunshine_queen]

So, I get industrious this evening, thinking, hey, might as well get started on those pesky college aps. Maybe get some research done about applications.

So I go good old princeton review and get application due dates, prices, and special ticks for

- Columbia
- St. John's
- Emory
- UVa
- UMd
- UF
- UM
- UCF
- FIU
- Skidmore

So, I'm discussing this with my mother- who has all been supportive and saying to go where I could and where I wanted, yadda yadda- and suddenly she spazzes out at the idea of me going out of state. All of the sudden. And now I have no idea what in god's name I'm doing. I mean, I am, realistically, going to UF. There's no two ways about it. Proximity, people going there, tuition, scholarships- everything shines with bright neon lights to UF.

But what if I DO get into some fantastic school? What if, on the off chance, I wanted to go to out of state? All of the sudden, my mother is yelling at me about tuition, and how we have no money, and I'll incur debts with student loans, and I'll never come home, and I'm responsible for hurricane Wilma, September 11th, Hiroshima, Pearl Harbor, the sinking of the Lusitania, WWI, the Titanic and the Civil War. Me. Because I might want to go to college out of state.

I am just... frayed nerves, that's the best way to describe it. Frayed nerves. I feel like I'm going to burst into tears, which is ridiculous. If I can't go out of state, I can't go out of state, and crying about it won't help. Gah, I hate being such a baby.

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[xenaamber.livejournal.com]

ooh... that's a toughie. I'm not sure what to say, other than that I think you'll ultimately get back whatever amount of money it costs. I'm not eligible for any financial aid, and to be honest, I don't think we have the money for out-of-state at UVA, but my parents insist that it's necessary. I'd seize the day and try for some out-of-state schools, because it will most likely work itself out. And if it doesn't the worst thing is that you end up transferring, right?

And I'm sure that at least part of your mom's worry is that her baby is leaving her -- just try and ignore that. It will only get worse. :-) And anyway, UF isn't exactly close to Miami, is it? So it's inevitable that you'll be away from her -- to be honest, once it's not at a comfortable driving level, the distance apart you are doesn't matter as much as you think.

And if you do get into some fantastic northern school, it better be UVA. :D I'm so proud you're thinking of applying here! (And I have a good friend at Skidmore if you have an intense desire to visit up there -- she'd definitely let you stay with her.)

*super big stress-relieving hug*

[sunshine-queen.livejournal.com]

Oh, she definitely doesn't want me leaving, I know that much. But it's happening.

And the major part of Skidmore is that my mom's sister lives literally down the street from the school. ;-) But I appreciate you scoping it out for me!