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Oct. 19th, 2005 09:01 pmSo, I get industrious this evening, thinking, hey, might as well get started on those pesky college aps. Maybe get some research done about applications.
So I go good old princeton review and get application due dates, prices, and special ticks for
- Columbia
- St. John's
- Emory
- UVa
- UMd
- UF
- UM
- UCF
- FIU
- Skidmore
So, I'm discussing this with my mother- who has all been supportive and saying to go where I could and where I wanted, yadda yadda- and suddenly she spazzes out at the idea of me going out of state. All of the sudden. And now I have no idea what in god's name I'm doing. I mean, I am, realistically, going to UF. There's no two ways about it. Proximity, people going there, tuition, scholarships- everything shines with bright neon lights to UF.
But what if I DO get into some fantastic school? What if, on the off chance, I wanted to go to out of state? All of the sudden, my mother is yelling at me about tuition, and how we have no money, and I'll incur debts with student loans, and I'll never come home, and I'm responsible for hurricane Wilma, September 11th, Hiroshima, Pearl Harbor, the sinking of the Lusitania, WWI, the Titanic and the Civil War. Me. Because I might want to go to college out of state.
I am just... frayed nerves, that's the best way to describe it. Frayed nerves. I feel like I'm going to burst into tears, which is ridiculous. If I can't go out of state, I can't go out of state, and crying about it won't help. Gah, I hate being such a baby.
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Date: 2005-10-19 06:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-19 07:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-19 07:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-19 07:05 pm (UTC)College stuff is so stressful! There's a big part of me that just wants to give up and go to
a community college orFAU.And, ya know, if you do get in to a school out of state, you don't necessarily have to go there. Maybe it'll just work as a nice ego boost to know that you got in.
I'm a Florida girl. I hate the weather sometimes (the humidity really, really sucks for my hair), but I couldn't imagine living anywhere else. And as long as I can get my SAT scores up, I'm getting the 100% Bright Futures. And my mom has basically told me too that she's really counting on me to get it.
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Date: 2005-10-19 07:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-19 07:41 pm (UTC)And I'm sure that at least part of your mom's worry is that her baby is leaving her -- just try and ignore that. It will only get worse. :-) And anyway, UF isn't exactly close to Miami, is it? So it's inevitable that you'll be away from her -- to be honest, once it's not at a comfortable driving level, the distance apart you are doesn't matter as much as you think.
And if you do get into some fantastic northern school, it better be UVA. :D I'm so proud you're thinking of applying here! (And I have a good friend at Skidmore if you have an intense desire to visit up there -- she'd definitely let you stay with her.)
*super big stress-relieving hug*
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Date: 2005-10-20 12:09 pm (UTC)And the major part of Skidmore is that my mom's sister lives literally down the street from the school. ;-) But I appreciate you scoping it out for me!
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:30 am (UTC)please don't stress- i promise you that my parents and i have had throw down, knock out fights (well kinda, in a psychological torture way) and the reason why your mom is flipping out is because she loves you and doesn't want you to be so far away. however, she reasonably can't stop you from at least applying to other great schools, and when you get in you just have to convince her that:
a) you really really want to go
b) the best way to show that she loves you is to let you go
c) you won't disappear off the face of the planet
d) there is a way to minimize annoyance (cost, etc)
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:30 am (UTC)i love you :)
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Date: 2005-10-20 12:09 pm (UTC)I love you too, honey.
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Date: 2005-10-21 06:13 am (UTC)Anyway, *hugs*. Moms always get craaaaazy stressed about college applications - I think I got kicked out of my house twice a week the whole fall I was applying. Luckily I got in early decision, so I only had to really go through it once.